Nasty Little Thoughts

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Manic Monday

I hate public speaking. So much so, in fact, that I took speech as a night class in college because I would be required to do less actual speaking due to time constraints. So what will you find me doing Monday morning at 8:30? PUBLIC SPEAKING!!

My company decided to have a company wide training day and not having enough actual trainers to send to over 2000 locations, it was decided to group several schools in one location and have the directors teach the classes. Hey, lucky me, I'm not a director, I thought with glee. Poor Boss Lady, she's gonna have to teach. And I laughed inside at the thought. You see, my boss lady is not exactly a people person; she's not current on her people skills. When the EX used to call me at work, he'd hang up if she answered just because he didn't want to deal with her shit.

The joke it turns out, was on me. Our school was chosen as a host site and Boss Lady therefore would be way to busy playing Happy Hostess to teach. So she nominated me! I don't remember putting on the job application that I would be willing to lead a group of my peers in a professional development exercise or even mentioning that it sounded like one hell of a fun way to spend a Monday morning. Yet, dear readers, I will be standing in front of a group of my peers making a total jackass of myself in the all too near future.

But Trisa, you say, you are a teacher; surely this won't be that hard. I am a pre-school teacher. Or I was until about 3 years ago when I entered management. And it is not the same teaching adults as teaching 3 and 4 year olds. To them, I am infallible. Words rhyme, things match, the sun rises and sets just because Ms. Trisa said so. But to colleagues...I have to prove myself more knowledgable than them (or at least be able to fake it.) In my field, there's not much more irritating than being trained by someone that you doubt has ever seen the inside of a classroom. I've been out of the loop for a while, and it could affect my credibility.None the less, I will be soliciting volunteers, asking questions and referring to my flip chart on Monday as we delve deeply into the moving topic of child guidance.

When first notified of my trainer status, I was told to participate in a conference call on ethics, which I did and got all prepared only to have my topic change the following week. What qualifies me as a trainer? Well I attended 2 conference calls and watched part of a DVD presentation. Yeah, buddy, I think I'm ready to take on the world. NOT!

So as you go about your Monday routines, think of me and my public speaking hell.

2 Comments:

  • Ugh! My sympathies. It's one thing to teach children who adore you and believe every word your say...and it is quite another to teach your peers, who don't want to be there and you actually have to prove yourself to. Just imagine how much worse it would be if it were the hag teaching...half of the class would quit.

    By Blogger Bran, at 6:46 PM  

  • I hope your day went well - let me know!

    By Blogger SuzA1A, at 3:34 PM  

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